Three fucking days! Or at least two for sure, and the start of the third! NO mia behaviors. None, whatsoever, at all! I am like so proud of myself. I even feel healthier! But without mia, ana kinda takes over. So I'm nervous about all the dinners I'll have to eat this week, let alone tonight possibly. I already got out of breakfast- don't think they'll let anything else slide today.
Hmm what else? School starts in EIGHT days! I'm so nervous but excited to start at Mentor; it's huge with so many opportunities of meeting many many amazing people. No one knows me either, they don't know my past which is what everyone used to base me on and judge me on. But not anymore. ;)
Also that party Friday night I did not attend. Screw you Colin, only wanting me to 'hook up' with. I love the kid, truly do. But when he pulls shit like this it makes me not even want to talk to him ever again!
Adam; Oh dear, I miss him terribly. I write him letters and he always replies and he's so into me. He trusts me which is good and says that I've stuck around through all of his dumb shit so he's going to try and stay sober for me. What a sweetie! :)
But I don't know if my feelings for him are like that too; I do like him, I am attracted to him to a certain degree though, and I don't like being tied down. I hate it! Like for real, I have commitment problems! Hahah like I can't do relationships right now because I want to be free; there are so many more people out there and I don't want to settle for just one. I want to play the field for a while, not be a slut or anything, as in hooking up with every guy I see, just you know, get to know them, flirt, have fun!
I want guys to treat me with respect already, because I know I deserve at least that much from them.
And anyways, yeah that's about it. Me schedule for the week as of today;
Monday; In the morning I meet with my counselor at the high school and get my schedule all sorted out. After that I'm going shopping with Kelly - super sweet lady, my CASA worker (speaks for me in court) and she takes time out of her life to help me in mine. Love her, she's just awesome. And then hopefully she won't take me out to eat, I can't do it. (YET! That is) And then at 7 I meet with my counselor Korrine. She's cute, I love her too. I basically bullshit my way through it so I'm not sent to residential for ED but now I can honestly say I am not having mia behaviors! Woooohoooo! :)
Tuesday; Currently is open. Maybe make it a day for myself, dye hair, work out, clean/organize room?
Wednesday; orientation, 8am-12. Then a meeting with my whole support team in the evening, I don't know what is going to come of it, but hopefully they don't send me away for ED. Ko rrine will put her input on it and since I've been journaling for her and reporting no behavoirs she can't say anythign against me. My potassium came back normal, from supposedly not taking potassium pills, aha. I really have to find them and buy some. And Dr. Rowane thinks I'm doing good as well, so I mean I don't think I'm going anywhere for that matter.
After that I'm not doing a thing. Getting ready for the big first day of school I guess, hah. It'll be okay.
Hope everyone is doing a beautiful as I am right now! :)
Muuuchh love. ♥