Today's one of those days where you feel so high on your meds, you kinda go crazy.
Haha excuse my weirdness.
Tonight = partyhardy! Colin is going to pick me up and we're going to "spend the night together" !
Ahhhhh! I was so excited yesterday, now I feel like I don't even want to go. It's like retarded. I wish my friends were going, I'd totally invite them but I don't even know the house or the kid who's having  it, hah. Colin colin colin colin. What to do with myself.
About six hours away frm the start of the night ;)
Butterflies and everything; it almost feels like I have to poo but I don't! Odd!?
My mind is like in a bubble right now, I couldn't explain to you right now what I'm feeling. Nervous, excited, scared, like I have to poo, butterflies EATING OUT MY STOMACH!
I wish, haha they need to take this gordo off of me!
-It's also decided that I'm going to lose five pounds before school starts which is the 29th. I think I can really do it, I mean I know I can but how committed am I really, you know?
Hmm I don't know what I'm going to wear tonight, Probably something sexy haha and I'm getting my drink on! Hell yeah, about fucking time; I went all summer without partying. Damn you probation! But then again, I'm going to be sneaking out all the time when school starts and parties are going down. I'm just excited but nervous and scared and I don't know.
No I'm not scared. I have no fear.
Honestly. Release fear from your life and you'll become happier, lighter, freeeee and at peace with your true inner self. ♥
I'm sweating like balls not really, I don't even know how balls sweat or whatever guys say haha but I'm hot and I gotta go. I hope tonight is okay...